Monday, February 6, 2012

My dream

Sophie asked her readers: 'What is your dream?'
And this is my reply

Ha, you got me in the corner................
My dream? I live my dream since 11 (or something) years.
Since I told myself that I wanna know why people do what they do and why they are who they are.
Since that day everybody is telling me their story.
Since that day everything happens to show me the why.
Since that day I started to understand this for me also.
Since that day I got insight in the behaviour of my relatives and friends
Some of them I never met since then, but I realy believe we'll meet again.

Also since then I started to draw mandala's which tell me all about inner feelings which I could not explain. Feelings of me, feelings of others.

And also since then I succeed more and more in visualising (by my art) other peoples dreams,  wishes, hopes and answers.

So I live my dream at the moment too.

Related to that dream I had so many creative ideas and a lot of them never saw daylight, because there are only 24 hours in a day. So I dreamed about a never ending creative mission, which makes everybody happy. I dream about following my heart and giving my art to everybody who's in my life. I also dreamed about an income buy selling postcards and stories.
This was my state of being at the end of last year...........

~While I write this I got an idea: postcards with 'some art ánd a story'.~

That is why I started my 365 day project about 'All I like to do thise 365 days'.
It helps me to work with deadlines and it helps me to believe that I am 'an all-day-instant-creator'. I love the 'temporary-art-effect' of this.

So
When you asked us to tell you our dreams, I thought "I don't know for the moment".
But like in my 365 project I started to write a comment at your post, believing that my words will come while writing.

Here it is:  I live my dream already:
I can write, draw, paint, create, inspire right here, right now, at any moment I wish, at any place, about any idea.
I love the life I live.

Thank you for the invitation. :))


Sunday, February 5, 2012

My way out

My way out started with my way inside
which began at the outside.
At that surfice seemed to be no depth
which appeared to be ok,
but it didn't feel like that for me,
because deep down under that surface
was a black hole
which almost absorbted my heart.
That is why I dived in that black hole:
I wanted to save my heart.
I landed in the middle of me
where I discovered life
which was ready to be born.
I realy loved to do it:
Being born for the second time
and that's what happened.
Since that moment I live for two
but I'm not superficial anymore.